| juno_athena ( @ 2004-12-03 12:40:00 |
What she believed
Someone once told her she wasn't beautiful, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. Someone once told her she wasn't talented, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. Someone once told her she couldn't dance, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. Someone told her she couldn't draw, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise.
Once they told her that she was smart, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. And she lived for that, because it was all that she had left. It was the only thing she could be proud of. But then it came to the point that she wasn't so smart anymore. Where her brain failed her. And she faced the fact that she lived in a lie, an illusion that she wasn't as intelligent as they made her to be. And she strived to tell herself otherwise. She sacrificed so much, she tried and tried. She ignored every wanton desire. She ignored her own craving for the fun things in life. Because her brain was all she had left. And yet, her efforts weren't enough.
And she broke down. She had nothing left. And she felt empty, confused and pained.
But this girl only wanted support. She wanted to be told she was more than the failure she thought she was. Because she had nothing left.
She once felt that she wasn't loved, and she believed herself. Because no one told her otherwise.
Someone once told her she wasn't beautiful, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. Someone once told her she wasn't talented, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. Someone once told her she couldn't dance, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. Someone told her she couldn't draw, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise.
Once they told her that she was smart, and she believed them. Because no one told her otherwise. And she lived for that, because it was all that she had left. It was the only thing she could be proud of. But then it came to the point that she wasn't so smart anymore. Where her brain failed her. And she faced the fact that she lived in a lie, an illusion that she wasn't as intelligent as they made her to be. And she strived to tell herself otherwise. She sacrificed so much, she tried and tried. She ignored every wanton desire. She ignored her own craving for the fun things in life. Because her brain was all she had left. And yet, her efforts weren't enough.
And she broke down. She had nothing left. And she felt empty, confused and pained.
But this girl only wanted support. She wanted to be told she was more than the failure she thought she was. Because she had nothing left.
She once felt that she wasn't loved, and she believed herself. Because no one told her otherwise.